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Once I began writing in 2007, the very first piece I submitted was accepted to an anthology with a name for submissions for illness-themed items. Not solely was it accepted, however on the writing middle the place I took the memoir class by which I crafted the piece, two of the instructors had their essays accepted as effectively. So, the writing middle determined to carry a studying. It was a snowy February evening and I pictured an empty room, however individuals stored pouring in till all of the seats have been crammed. After I examine my anorexia, I used to be surrounded by ladies from the viewers wanting to inform me about their very own consuming problems or that of their youngsters.
Then the rejections began coming. They weren’t all rejections. Simply the bulk. I accepted the rejections as a solution to construct a thicker pores and skin. I’d at all times been instructed I used to be too delicate, that my tears got here too simply, that I cowered within the face of confrontation.
Fifteen years later, my pores and skin is as thick as an elephant’s disguise. Till this 12 months, when it cracked.
I wrote a chunk titled “Measuring Sanity.” A few of my associates learn it and gave it rave evaluations. Not simply because they’re my associates. These are individuals I belief to be trustworthy with me about my writing. I submitted my “Measuring Sanity” to a revered literary journal the place the theme is sickness and therapeutic (not the identical one as in 2007). The piece bought rejected, however the editors of this explicit journal have a observe the place if the vote was shut, they lengthen the courtesy of offering the notes made by their editorial board about it, as soon as they end their manufacturing. In addition they invited me to resubmit the piece if I wished to revise it primarily based on the editorial board’s notes.
It’s an extended wait as they solely publish twice a 12 months — within the Spring and the Fall. I labored diligently on revising “Measuring Sanity.” I didn’t revise it blindly, taking all their solutions. I took what I believed made sense and revised it in line with my very own model and inventive inside voice.
I resubmitted it a few month in the past. Yesterday “Measuring Sanity” was rejected once more and I bought an equivalent e-mail, extending me the courtesy of offering the notes made by their editorial board about it, as soon as they end their manufacturing.
It wouldn’t be so irritating, however that is a type of one-hit-wonder instances because the very first piece I submitted to them in 2015, titled “Eight Months After a Suicide Try,” was accepted and I haven’t been capable of crack the code since.
I haven’t made up my thoughts if I’m going to revise and resubmit “Measuring Sanity” but a 3rd time. A part of it will depend on what the notes say. I would strive submitting it elsewhere and see what occurs.
Sometimes I can take the rejection of my work in stride. The rejections of this one piece are attending to me. I’m taking them personally and I’m beginning to really feel as if I can’t get this proper, no matter how onerous I strive. And it doesn’t really feel good. If I don’t strive once more, I’ll really feel as if I’m giving up, but when I do strive once more and get rejected I’ll really feel as if I got here off as determined.
I’ve a call to make. However first I need to see their notes.
Thanks for studying. Andrea
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