I wore my Bipolar AF shirt at present in honor of assembly my new psychiatrist, haha.
This has been a really attempting few days for me, to say the least. To recap: I ran out of my bipolar remedy on Sunday. I had been attempting all week to get a refill however there was miscommunication between my physician and the pharmacy. When the script was lastly prepared on the pharmacy, they advised me it was going to be $300-something. My co-pay is often $30!
After some extra forwards and backwards with the physician, the pharmacy, and the insurance coverage firm, it seems that the insurance coverage firm now not covers that remedy so I would need to pay out of pocket. I regarded it up on all of the low cost websites that I might discover, and the most affordable I might discover it was for about $240.
I used to be upset, to say the least. The remedy routine I have been on for the final six years has been working rather well for me and I did not wish to change that up. There is not one other remedy with the identical formulation, so my choices have been to both pay the exorbitant value out of pocket or to modify to a distinct remedy.
This is the kicker: my psychiatrist retired final month! So, no modifications might be made to my remedy till I noticed a brand new physician. I had an appointment scheduled with him on the 18th, however since I would been compelled to give up my remedy chilly turkey, I could not wait that lengthy. The workplace had a cancellation this morning at 10:00, so I gratefully accepted that!
I actually like the brand new physician and we had a great getting-to-know-each-other session. He stated that there is not a drugs that has the identical formulation as my earlier one, however he might prescribe one thing related and we’ll see the way it works out. I am going to return in a month to debate (until a difficulty comes up sooner). He stated the largest factor to look out for is that if I begin exhibiting indicators of hypomania.
So, if I begin writing all types of latest large, outlandish plans, and begin engaged on a dozen new tasks with out ending them, possibly give me a warning 😉
My weigh-in was NOT good at present. During the last three days, I’ve eaten terribly and have not tracked my meals or something. I used to be tremendous wired about my remedy, and never taking it has made me really feel type of down. It is a remedy that I discover if I miss even a single dose–I can inform inside just a few hours if I forgot to take it, as a result of I get a type of buzzing feeling in my physique. I am meticulous about taking it each single day.
So, I simply have not been feeling myself. I am not utilizing that as an excuse for overeating, but it surely positively performed an enormous think about it. I am an emotional eater, and I have been fairly emotional this week. The dimensions was up–AGAIN–and I am not completely happy about it–AGAIN. I simply actually hope that this pattern STOPS ALREADY.
At 144.0, I’m now on the very prime of my weight vary within the “regular” BMI class. And 11 kilos excessive of my “comfy” vary.
I am having a tough time not telling myself, “I advised you so–of course you gained it again, you at all times do. Why would this time be any completely different?”. I do know that it isn’t productive to assume that method, however I am unable to assist the ideas that come into my head.
Now that Jerry goes to be working diligently on dropping his dad bod (see yesterday’s submit), I feel it might assist me as nicely. Doing it collectively is at all times simpler than going at it alone.
The toughest half about this for me is that I labored SO DAMN HARD to get this weight off during the last yr and a half. It could be fully ridiculous of me to let myself simply acquire it proper again. All of my laborious work can have been for nothing.
I really feel like I simply want just a few good days underneath my belt to begin seeing some progress (even when I do not “see” the progress, I do know I’ll not less than really feel extra assured when consuming nicely). I must atone for my operating, too–in order to succeed in my year-long purpose of 500 miles, I am going to must run slightly below 10 miles every week. I’ve solely run six miles thus far this yr! So I am already behind (but it surely’s definitely not too late to catch up).
Now that I’ve acquired an answer (not less than briefly) for my remedy concern, I’ll attempt actually laborious this week to not less than lose the load I gained since final week. I do know I sound like a damaged report, but it surely’s all I can actually say proper now. Not less than I have never misplaced hope but!
